What capitalist society ingrains in us is highly toxic This question is keeping me up at night: when am I enough? With that, I mean: As a human being, am I good enough as I am right now? Am I doing enough useful things? Am I productive enough? What is the baseline of this concept?…
I lost something precious (without realizing)
Did you lose it too? It’s 2009. I’m getting on the bus to travel back to my student dorm. I just visited my parents for the weekend to catch up on things. I don’t have a car, so I always use public transit to reach the village I grew up in. Thankfully, there is a…
Jack of all trades, master of none
About that one time in my life I tried to specialize and it backfired tremendously It took me way too long to admit to myself that I like being a jack of all trades and a master of none. I cannot for the life of me retrieve a lot of joy from doing one thing…
Mental sorrows without a stack trace
Trying to debug my mental health, but sadly I just have to accept that there’s not one answer Mental health issues are not new to me at all, I’ve been dealing with them since age 16-17. I’ve been depressed twice, the last time was at age 22. Even though it’s been 15 years since my…
Worries from an automation-skeptic
Automation makes sense in a few sub-contexts, but should not be taken to the extreme. I’ve been an automation skeptic as long as I’ve been working in IT, an industry that’s all about automation. That doesn’t make sense on a superficial level, but I feel like I’ve been doing useful work. The fact that you…
Music just hits different during puberty
The 7 most influential albums on teenage me. Looking back, is there a time other than puberty when you’re more open to impressions, feelings and experiences? Thinking of the period when I was 14 to 24 years old fills me with all sorts of strange emotions, a strange mixture of melancholy and “glad I survived…
Cars were a mistake
It’s mind-blowing how much space and QoL we have conceded to a metal murder machine that people associate with their free-dumbs Cars, aka big chunks of metal that keep getting bigger and bigger, are sacrosanct in our society. If you try to make a point against cars and how car-centric society sucks, people will argue…
No fucks to give
I’m personally thriving, but looking at the state of the world has me feeling completely detached I’m working very hard on building my nutrition coaching company right now. I honestly don’t think I’ve ever worked harder in my life. I also don’t think I’ve ever felt so much purpose in my life. That’s all great!…