The end of summer gives me a variety of feelings, good and bad.
Sadness because of the ending of my favorite season. The days are shortening, the warmth is leaving, soon we’ll have to wear wintercoats again!
Excitement because my orchestra’s are resuming rehearsals. I missed all the people, I missed the feeling of making music in a large group (one of the best things in life).
Apprehension because of several study and work related stress that will start again. During the summer I feel so utterly relaxed, I dread the stress that will certainly come again soon. I want to finally finish my bachelor education, but I also have to work a lot more because I plan to do another study after this bachelor. It will be something completely different, but I feel it fits my interests and values a lot more. I’ll explain it in more detail later, because the plan is not fully formed yet, and I have to do some calculation as to how it’ll all work out money wise. I only concluded that I do not wish to work in the field that my bachelor will take me; however, since I’m in my last year I am determined to finish it.
I have nerves right now, because I’m having a job interview later today. I want to work 2 days in the next 6 months, since my schedule allows it and I need the money (if I want to continue studying). Fingers crossed!
And I have to admit, I might also have the jitters because tonight I’m going to see my orchestra colleagues after a 2 month summer break. It’s something I find hard to explain, but I’m really excited to play in the orchestra again, see everyone, find out if I can still keep up with the difficulty level…
Two upcoming concerts in the near feature and a lot of extra rehearsals, can’t wait!